What is My Truth? Where is My Truth?

My truth is stuck…

between forgiving the past and offending the future

between grief beyond tears and joy beyond wordds

between desires of ecstasy and fears of ruin

between my inner child and highest self

between begging for acceptance and running for safety

between powerful silence and pointless explanation

between naive hopefulness and painful cynicism

between doubt and faith

between overwhelming emotions and freezing numbness in the body

between my fortress of solitude and naked vulnerability

between hunger for connection and pursuit of independence

between a roar of passion and a whimper of inadequacy

between pushing the edge and pulling the covers

between expanding senses and narrowing focus

between uncomfortable growth and cozy acceptance

between fierce battle and calm surrender

between nagging hunger and sweet indulgence

between lofty aspirations and heart-wrenching shame

between calculated bargaining and reckless gambling

between hot pursuits and aloof indifference

between bashful sluttiness and wanton prudence

between imagined catastrophes and castles in the sky

My truth is…

an awkward dance between oneness and hunger to be different

an unfortunate struggle between goodness and failures

a tug of war between my demanding critic and playful inner child

a dilemma between dying for a cause or living a long happy life

My truth is a frustrated writer torn between

creating an epic tragedy or foolish satire

My truth is a slow march to the inevitable loss of all that I love and a celebration of all my attempts in life

My truth is sometimes silent, will you listen for it?